DEAR JIO,

hala ka! nabasa mo pala.. alam mo bang nagulat ako??

BAKIT MO BINASA? kainis ka! (joke!)
nung nabasa ko yung sinulat mo alam mo bang napagulong ako sa kama hanggang sa lumagabog ako sa sahig?? sa sobrang hiya! naiyak pa ako.. nahihiya talaga ako sayo!! kainis! bakit mo binasa?!?!? (paulit-ulit?)
hindi mo naman ako finafollow aa. paano mo nabasa?? nireblog ni dana o ni tatakit? HUMANDA YUNG MGA IYON! baka naman inisip mo nung na walang hiya ako kasi ganun.. baka isinumpa mo na ako.. hahah! JOKE lang talaga yun.. sos!

eee!! bakit mo kasi binasa!?!? pero salamat kasi sinabi mo sakin.. pero nahihiya talaga ako.. pero hindi ako galit., nahihiya lang talaga.. eeeeeee!!!

hindi ako maka move on.. ober! sabihin mo raw sakin yung naging reaksyon mo nung mabasa mo yon? required kang sabihin aa.. sa FB, imessage mo sakin :))

at AS IF naman mababasa mo ito? asa ka lois! bwahaha! pero pagnabasa mo, alam mo nang gagawin ha.

bakit nun mo lang nalaman na kras kita? since 2nd year pa kaya.. haha! natawa ako..


tsaka salamat sa compliment mo ha, NABASA MO TALAGA YUNG ISA KONG STORY??? O? alin? tungkol san? sabihin mo rin sa message mo aa. pati kung paano mo nabasa.. nacucurious ako, pero astig, akalain mong nakabasa ka pala? salamat!

PS: subukan mong hindi magmessage after itong mabasa, babagabagin ka ng konsensya mo, mumultuhin kita sa panaginip mo, magpapakita si sadako sa screen ng notebook mo, hahuntingin ka ni Emily Rose, susundan ka hanggang sa Ateneo.. :))

paBLOG.

ayos! nagfarewell party kami.. andaming challenges yung pinagdaanan namin..

ALAM NYO BANG:

• nagkaroon ng issue sa venue dahil nagkaroon ng clone ang IV-Rizal??
• muntikan kaming pabayarin ng Php100 per hour para sa charge ng mga gadgets. per gadget?
• ang worst, HINDI UMABOT SA KALAHATI NG BILANG NG GRUPO ANG UMATTEND?

GET TOGETHER! nakanaman! sa lahat ng get together, ito yung talagang nagget together kami..(sarcastic)

pero masaya pa rin naman kami. Pero ulit, may kulang syempre... nakakalungkot. nakakatampo, nakakapanghinayang. 

eh ano pa nga bang magagawa ako? tapos na e! 

ANG TOTOO:

• mahal ko pa rin yang mga taong yan kahit na minsan nakakainis sila
• naiintindihan ko sila kung bakit ayaw nilang umattend, pero wala sa lugar yung rason.
• sila naman laging nagpapasaya sa araw ko sa school. swear! ang boring sa bahay kaya!
• sila yung nag eencourage sakin sa isang bagay.
• MAHAL KO SILA.

kanina pa, nagkaroon ng recollection slash rants slash revelation slash whatever portion. innanounce ko itong napakaganda at napakamakasalanan kong blog. tapos nag back read ako ng mga naisulat ko for the past days and months. nahiya ako. nafeel ko kasi yung same feeling ko noon habang sinusulat ko yung mga RANTS na yun. pero swear! wala na yung hatred or whatever feeling na yun. 

in two wonderful and super occupied days, graduate na ako ng HS!!!! wala akong masabi.. nalulungkot ako. mamimiss ko kasi yung mga taong naging part ng apat na taon ko bilang hayskul sa palawan high. pero excited akong magcollege. KUNG MAGKACOLLEGE AKO. haha!

to who ever you are who's reading this now. alam kong kaklase kita, at rizal ka, don't forget to PM me. sabihin mo lahat ng comments mo, rants, at hinanakit mo sakin matapos mo itong mabasa. SWEAR ulit, ayokong magkaroon ng bisita sa blog ko na may galit sakin.. sa FB pwede nyo akong malocate.. 

LOVE,

ELOISE.

katatawanang hindi dapat pagmalabisan..

ang lalim ng title ito lang naman ang ilalagay ko..

PS: wag seryosohin

kasi pows, ako yung gumagawa ng aming year book.. hindi naman masamang magpantasya.. isa pa, hindi nya naman binibisita ang aking blog.. asa!

hahahaha!! joke lang yan. baka mamaya sabihin mo obsess ako.. asa! joke lang talaga yan ha..

Once upon a time, I fell in love with my bestfriend.

[From his perspective..]

Talking to her became part of my Daily Routine. Every morning, her voice was the first thing I heard. She would call the moment she woke up, and no matter how exhausted I was, how early it was, it didn’t stop me from smiling and saying good morning.Then at Nine o’clock EXACTLY, she would call and we would talk until she fell asleep. And I would stay on and listen to her, she talks in her sleep sometimes. How much I wished I could be there and kiss her. She would never know.

She is the most beautiful thing my eyes ever set on. She never wore make up, and That’s how I liked it. She always smiled, at the tiniest things. Anything really, and her laugh? Oh man her laugh. She hated it, but she could never stop. And no matter how crappy my day was, when I heard her laugh, my heart  would soar.

Then there were the days, when I thought she would stop smiling. When I thought she would never stop crying. Man.. Have you ever felt so helpless in your entire life? And it hurts, that we live far away, and I can’t be there to hold her... And I KNOW I could keep her smiling. I would never hurt her. Because I love her... The kind of love that did not need any reminder. It would be a subconscious thing to know that I, with all my heart, Loved her. 

And then the next days she would be okay. Like nothing happened. I’ve always admired how strong she was. No matter how much she was dying inside, she never changed. It just became a bit harder for her to smile..but she got through it.

I thought we were falling mutually in love, but my better mind knew it wasn’t true. It was just a fact, that all I was to her was her bestfriend. Nothing more. But there were those days That I would believe otherwise. and It gave me hope, but being realistic, she did not love back. I know she had mixed feelings, and I know it be easier to drop these feelings. But I had to keep trying..

And then one day. We had a big fight. I don’t understand what was happening, but we were both angry and yelling. I said things I regret in the past and present.. But this fight, was my biggest regret. She was crying now, and said the words that broke my heart, I am not your girlfriend. And I am sure I will never be! But I am your bestfriend, and thats what I’ll always be. Damn. It hurt so much. She hung up and said we needed space until I realized we are only friends. Until I let go.. but I love her so much.. It’s been about two months now, and we haven’t said a word to each other. I miss her so much. And I can’t decide what hurts more: Loving her and watching her get hurt, or Loving her and not knowing how she is/end.

Dear bestfriend: I love you, and I wish I could love you back the right way.

but honestly, we will can never anything more than friends. 

RELEVANT.

hahahahahah!!!

dapat ko raw itong itago sabi ng aking tatakit (Kate Buñi) OWKEY FINE!!

maraming nakakita na nito, tapos inasar ako at tanong kung sino ba raw sya.. LOL!! haha!!

nakakatuwa o, ang sarap mang asarrrr!! GELO! yeah! GELO- white fat chinked-eyed nerd with eye glasses. rock!!

swear hindi ko ang gumawa nyan!! binantaan lang ako ni tatakit na magagalit sya pagwinala ko.. promise!!

ito ebidensya:

from: tatakit.. 

pasensya, super low resolution ang aking mga pictures.. =D

TATTOO!!

haha. dahil akala kong magpapaglamour kami ngayon, hindi ako nagpalagay ng tattoo sa kamay.. naisipan ko, sa braso nalang.. and there you go. it's a heart!!! tattoo credits to Dannah Pilpil.. :D

hahahaha!! so ayan. report ko lang. wahahah! malapit na matapos ang lahat ng dapat tapusin!! and yeah! breathe! hahah!!

photos by me

credits to dana again for the tattoo!!

so I felt like sharing lang naman.. made on one heck of a day in the ending month of my highschool life.. much tears!!

one heck of a test!

haha! i am really laughing right now considering the fact that i have to go back to school by 2pm and it's already 15 minutes before. but the real concern of this boredom blog is my FINAL GRADE in CALCULUS. oh men! i told you before i am not really good in math. well, numbers dont love me.. =(

to cut this stupid rants in short, my score on our last periodical test is 20!! sounds good but please men! that's all i've got out of 35 items.. life sucks! especially in calculus. now i have to deal with any grade that will not be higher than EIGHTY NINE!! 89? 89? that's the highest grade you can get? oh men! kill yourself. screw bad vibes.. i have to get well really soon! smile.. come here!

i really can't make a longer speech right now. i still have stuff to do. going back there now. BTW.. let me shre this cute gif i found on tumblr.. just click..
http://28.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lgwojrdO2W1qafgk9o1_500.gif